New Service, LivePerson, and Down in the Dumps

I am offering another new service on my website soon. Dream interpretation! I thought long and hard about offering dream interpretation. I mean, this is what got me into loving psychology. I have about 4 different dream interpretation books and have studied my own dreams, along with friends dreams. A lot of people say I have the knack for dream interpretation. So I figured, why not offer it?

And this brings me into my own dream I had last night. I dreamed that I was on some TV show helping a woman pick her blind dates by telling her if they were compatiable with her -- but wait --- not astrology wise, not tarot card wise, not numerology wise --- psychically! And I was pretty good at it. I mean, I must have been doing it for awhile to be on a TV show to help a woman choose a mate. So I am now off to think about that service. Sadly, my personal experience won't help me since I couldn't see right threw the jerks and cheats in my life, but I have had feelings about others significant others. We shall see...

Either way, I woke up at 9:30 this morning, calling Chris to tell him my dream. I was so excited about it. He was still sleeping lol. I joke with Chris and I tell him we are going to be the Sonny and Cher of the metaphysical world, just without the divorce. I just love having someone that is interested in my dreams as much as I am, and well, just interested in spirituality and metaphysics all around.

I re-joined LivePerson. Once I figure out a schedule, I will post that in here and let you all know. Check out my spiffy new profile I made :) I raised my rate to $2.50 even though I hated to do that, but this will give me people who will not challenge my gifts and will at least come with an open mind. I need to fill out my tax form and send it to them. Otherwise, I can't get paid everything I make. I guess that would make me officially employed?

Speaking of being unemployed, I have been going nuts all day. And it got me down in the dumps because I was sitting at home, doing absolutely nothing. Chris was working and I had nothing to do. I could have played Sims, but I am becoming bored with The Sims 3 again. And then the local news had to make it worse by saying Michigan's unemployment rate increased, especially in the city of Flint (where I live around). Not like we needed the news to tell us this, but seriously, listening to that stuff gets you down. My parents love the news. They listen to it while we eat dinner. I would be content with the TV to be shut off, but it's their house. I feel better that I fixed up my LivePerson profile and I'm happy at how it looks. I'm hoping to start it this weekend.

I will eventually update the Magical Unicorns monthly message. I need to get inspired and whatknot. Or rather, "the presence".

Bright blessings, love, and prayers --
Samantha V. =)

Michael Jackson & Tabloids

I can't remember if I ever posted my dream I had about Michael Jackson after he died and before his funeral. Anyway, my good friend and fellow intuitive and Angel Therapist (R) Lauralyn was interviewing Farrah, Michael, and Ed. Ed didn't want to come threw as he lead a pretty private life and had no messages he wanted to share. However, Michael did an interview with Lauralyn. She had asked her readers of her e-zine, Heaven & Earth, to submit their questions about Michael or if they had any questions about Michael (and Farrah and Ed as well) and I told Lauralyn about my dream. This is taken from her e-zine:

I have a question for Michael Jackson. I recently had a disturbing dream about him that he was attempting to take his own life only to have police shoot him. I'm just curious as to why he showed up in this dream as suicidal and eventually being shot by police? In the dream he said he was tired of everyone ridiculing him from the media down to his own family. And my dad and brother-in-law tried stopping him from killing himself until the police showed up and thought he was going to go on a shooting rampage and they killed him. Meanwhile, my dad, brother-in-law, and I were receiving a bunch of papers to fill out to magazines, tabloids, and newspapers on our accounts of what happened and we were to be paid. My dad and brother-in-law filled out these forms, but I didn't it as I thought it disrespected him.

In waking life, I feel just bad for Michael himself because he's not being allowed to be in peace because the media keeps speculating how he died, talking about his questionable life non-stop it seems. And this is going to sound weird, but I feel his presence around me, like right now I feel he is standing right behind me as I type this. I get offended at all the Michael Jackson jokes that have been told to me, and I wasn't that huge of a fan. I admired his music, but was not a fan. I just feel that everyone has been disrespecting him, even now that he's passed on and it's becoming one of my beliefs to never disrespect anyone that is passed on. Is there a reason why Michael is around me?

Lauralyn's Answer: Michael was around you because he knew you are intuitive and compassionate soul, and he was thankful that you picked up this insight into his life on the "psychic airwaves" because many on earth did not have this sensitivity to his pain. They were caught up the illusion of idolization.

Your dream is very telling of what Michael's life was like on earth. Taking the drugs to numb his pain was a slow attempt to take the life he felt he couldn't truly live, and it contributed to his death. When we think of suicide, we think of someone hurting themselves, ending their lives, putting themselves out of their own misery, and this is what Micheal was doing with his drug use and other self-destructive behavior. He was slowly killing himself over time because he had lost the will to fight for his life, he didn't feel he had a life to fight for. It was controlled by the media, as he saw it. He was tired of the media ridiculing him - was he loved or hated? It seemed to change day by day. One day he was a star and the next a freak. He felt like everyone was out to get him. The judgment was unbearable.

Your Dad and brother-in-law in the dream represent two close male figures in his life who were trying to stop him from the self-destructive behavior they knew would lead to his death. The "authorities" may represent the doctors who enabled him, their fears of what would happen if they didn't give him the drugs he asked for. Would he be a threat to himself or others? Would they be attacked somehow?

The fact that your Dad and brother-in-law filled out the tabloid forms in exchange for pay shows that even the people closest to him, that may have been trying to help him, may have "sold him out" for money. It is either fact or Michael's worst fear. I haven't been watching much news on this to avoid influence on my channeling, but you may see some evidence revealed in the media. Michael felt disrespected by every person who "ratted" him out. He said he felt like every piece of his soul was on sale to the public. A very unsettling feeling to live with. We can avoid contributing to the business that feeds off pain and misery by boycotting tabloids. I wonder if everyone in the world did this, would we be able to possibly save a life in Hollywood?
Copyrighted by Heaven Healing Arts and reprinted with permission from the July 2009 issue of Heaven & Earth.

I have to agree with Lauralyn on this, however, sadly, people feel the need to idolize and know celebrities every single move. But we have to remember that celebrities are human beings as well, who have chosen to live their lives in the spotlight. If there was a way where the tabloids could become more reporting the news (which I feel the media itself has not been doing), instead of creating stories, maybe celebrities could be at peace. And I'm not saying "poor celebrities" because sometimes they do things just for the attention of tabloids. But it just really makes you wonder. And with Michael, he just couldn't trust anyone except for his mother and his friends Elizabeth Taylor, Diana Ross, and Marlon Brando. And honestly, that is a very sad and lonely life. If you do not have compassion to realize that, then God help you!

Michael's questionable life is not ours to judge -- that is God's job. And we all have skeletons in our closet (maybe not as extreme as Michael's) but we cannot go around pretending to be perfect and sinless. One of Jesus's famous sayings was when he was defending Mary Magdalene: "Who are you to throw stones at this girl?" I can't exactly quote it, but I'm pretty sure everyone knows this quote. We are natural born sinners, we are born with imperfections and quirks and flaws. And yet, God loves us unconditionally. Does He punish us? He might...we really don't know that answer. I fully believe karma is punishment or reward that they talk about in the Bible. What comes around, goes around, you reap what you sew...all of that is karma. And I have witnessed karma.

Anyway, I was amazed by Lauralyn's e-zine again. Her first issue, she interviewed Audrey Hepburn, which was so awesome. She was a class act. And I offer to be friends with Michael in the after life and while I'm living. I'm letting it be known if he wants to visit and talk, he is always welcomed.

I typed up something on my laptop with thoughts about Michael Jackson and his kids, but I am unsure if I will share it. Perhaps maybe at a later date.

Bright blessings, love, and prayers --
Samantha V. =)

Tarotstrology Forecast for 7/13/09

Tarotstrology Readings for the week of July 13, 2009

Aries (March 21 - April 20) ~ Two of Pentacles - Aries can feel like they are doing a balancing act this week. They are juggling two or more things at once, mostly to please other people. Remember to put yourself first, Aries, and things will work out. Also, they must remember to not give into guilt trips and focus on service instead of doing something out of guilt or because “they have to”.

Taurus (April 21 - May 21) ~ Three of Staffs - Negotiations and contracts are in store for most Taurus’s this week. Taurus can also expect to increase their knowledge in an area they are starting to learn about or perhaps learn a new hobby. They could also discuss going into business with others this week.

Gemini (May 22 - June 21) ~ Queen of Swords - Gemini’s may find themselves depressed or worried about the women in their lives (mother, sister, girlfriends, friends that are girls, wives etc.) and will want to be there for them. Gemini’s must remember that that energy is not their’s and to protect themselves, as they may soak up the energies easily. Some Gemini’s may also experience a loss, a heartache, or a break-up this week as well.

Cancer (June 22 - July 22) ~ The Devil - Warning Cancer! Someone may be envious of you and could be spreading harmful gossip about you! I suggest dropping that “friend” like a bad habit and do not trust this person with anything! You are better off without the negativity in your life! This person is someone who thrives on drama and hate and is only happy when others are miserable. Cancers do not need that in their lives at the moment.

Leo (July 23 - August 21) ~ Once again, Leo drew two cards. The first card is King of Pentacles. Leos could find themselves making business negotiations or going into business with an older male, who is loyal and down to earth and is either an Earth sign (Taurus, Virgo, or Capricorn) or has Earth-like qualities. Some Leos may find themselves making wise investments this week as well, that will pay off by the end of December this year. The next card is the Hanged Man. Things are kind of going slow for Leo. They are not going as fast as the Leo would like it to. Don’t worry, Leo. Think of it as a moon void where you be still and plan your next moves.

Virgo (August 22 - September 23)~ The Tower - Life is suddenly changing, for the better…or for the better. The Tower usually represents sudden change. This sudden change doesn’t necessarily have to be bad. However, it can be negative; but in the end, it can result in something very positive for you. Try to whether the storm and find some friends to lean on during these changes. Hold on tight, Virgo! Remember this is just a stepping stone or learning experience.

Libra (September 24 - October 23) ~ Nine of Pentacles - A project you have been working very hard on is about to come to completion and the monetary rewards may start rolling in. Libras are also advised to spend sometime outdoors connecting with Mother Nature, as she has some wisdom to share with you this week.

Scorpio (October 24 - November 22) ~ Queen of Pentacles - A rich but generous person may help you out either financially, spiritually, or emotionally this week. This person could be a woman, who is an Earth sign (Taurus, Virgo, or Capricorn) or has Earth-sign like traits. You could also find some comfort and a little help from your mother or mother-figure this week as well.

Sagittarius (November 23 - December 22) ~ Nine of Cups - Sagittarius could receive a clean bill of health this week -- whether it’s good news from the doctor or just getting over a summer time cold. They can also expect to feel a lot of happiness and love this week from a romantic partner. This is of course a time for celebration!

Capricorn (December 23 - January 20) ~ Eight of Swords - Conflict and crisis is in the card for some Capricorns this week. But don’t worry, this too shall pass. This could be a learning experience or stepping stone. Capricorns may take criticism more personal, than usual this week. Remember, the only criticism that matters is the person who is giving you the criticism. Do you respect them? If not, shrug them off and let it go in one ear and out the other.

Aquarius (January 21 - February 19) ~ The Hierophant - Aquarius can be lost in their religion and spirituality this week, perhaps either strengthening their spiritual/religious connection or exploring an entirely different religion or spiritual path. Aquarius can expect to forgive someone from their past who has done them wrong and expect to be forgiven as well.

Pisces (February 20 - March 20) ~ Seven of Pentacles - Pisces has been working its fish-tails off and could expect some reward this week. This could be monetary or a day off or perhaps someone will help you this week as well. Pisces will also be very intuitive this week as well, and this will be a great week for any Pisces who are professional intuitive/psychics.

And that concludes your tarotstrology horoscope for this week! Tune in next week!

Bright blessings, love, and prayers --
Samantha Vandefeller
www.samanthasreadings.com

The Grandpas Meet Chris, Uniting of Twin Flames

I guess Chris had a dream about my grandfather's last night. They pretty much told him to treat me well and encouraged Chris to tell me he loved me. They also told him that I was fragile, but strong. This floored me as they usually come to me in my dreams and tell me if someone is a good egg or a bad egg. And usually they don't like anyone I date. But apparently, they told Chris that he's the man for me. My grandpa's never said anything to me about anyone like that even.

And the weird thing with Chris, not only all of the "coincidences" that have been happening, but I am feeling way more psychic and more trusting of my intuition. I want to say that this is what happens when twin flames unite. But I could be wrong. I need to do more investigative work into it. But Chris is an intuitive, and he says we are.

And I just remembered...I need to do the tarotstrology forecast for this coming week!! I promise that will be coming tomorrow since I won't be seeing Chris :-*(

Bright blessings, love, and prayers --
Samantha V. =)

I met Chris, Bye-bye dreams, and time to crack down!

I met Chris yesterday afternoon. I would go into details, but the only important thing is I am no longer single. If only the computer could read our thoughts and put them on the screen, it would make it easier. There is so much to say but I can't get it out fast enough and it frustrates me (reason why I rarely write fiction stories, I have a wild imagination and it takes forever to get it out).

I went onto Baker's website, was going to apply for admission today since I've been meaning to do so, and to find out they no longer have the Certified Addictions Counselor program in Flint -- only in Muskegon! I am upset about it! I was really all gun ho about going back to school. I don't want to go back for a degree yet. I want to start out small with a certificate! I don't have the time, patience, or funds for a degree! I am broken up about it inside actually. I'm actually crying! I don't trust online schools. And I could NEVER focus doing an online class.

But something is telling me I am meant to focus on the psychic readings (or rather tarot readings) business and open my own little metaphysical shop. I am meeting new people who are small business-savvy I am sure they can mentor me. But it just seems so huge!! It's like just these giant leaps and I feel like I can't make them. And I would feel so much better if I had a partner to go into this with and it has to be with someone I trust. So that does have to wait. There is a reason why Chris is in my life....a whole lot of Saturn in Virgo reasons and beyond! So really, not just A REASON, but reasons!

Maybe I can just enroll in psychology classes just for fun? I should call and ask because I want to take psychology classes for my readings business. It is recommended to have a background in psychology (at least according to Christine Jette's book Professional Tarot).

I am starting to get bummed out with how I am not receiving any support from any friends and family (other than my parents) with this blogathon thing. Please, just donate $1 and it will make me happy! Otherwise I just won't even do it! Because why bother doing something if no one supports you? Donate here: http://www.blogathon.org/pledge.php?blogid=172
Yeah you have to create an account, but seriously, it's worth it! It will make me feel better! I feel like I am doing nothing!

I am going to change my Magic Manifestation Box...I am going to see if the Universe will help me find my true calling. Or one that really needs me. Maria Shaw told me back in 2007, I am here to do a lot of things in this lifetime. But my energies can get scattered. I just don't know where to start...

I'm sorry if this seems such a downer entry, but here is something positive. I gave Lady P, the winner of the 165th blog entry contest, her reading on the 4th of July. She inquired about a dog she had found. She has been trying to reunite the pooch named Peach with her family but kept coming across scam artists and just dishonest people. I told her psychically that she would reunite Peach with her family within 7 days from that reading. I also drew a card for her to see what else she needed to know about the pooch, and the 7 of Pentacles came up, which not only confirmed the 7 days but she was going to be rewarded with her efforts. I had also told her that Peach wandered a little too far from home than she wanted. She was very scared but relieved when Lady P found her. This is Lady P's e-mails:

July 9:
"Hello there!
Well, a great relief and bit of good news to report - the little lost dog was happily reunited with her owners today!! Yeah! it was so joyous to see. The owners actually live a few blocks Norht in the neighborhood and didn't think to come down as far as where I live to look for her. The Mom is spanish speaking, so all of my work on the internet was for nought. But you had told me that you thought this Friday and here we are, Thursday night 8 pm - happy reunion. I just wanted to let you know"

July 10:
"I went to go visit "Peach" today and it is obvious that we both still love one another and miss each other. Her little family has fallen on hard times and a month ago had to move from a house with a lawn to a small basement apt that has only one central room. Peach likes the outdoors and she wandered just a little too far that day, a week ago. The owner said that she will be meeting her "boyfriend" next month so that she can have puppies. She offered me one yesterday -and I kinda thought for a moment - yeah, I would love one of Peach's offspring. But time will tell whether that happens or not."

So it must be time to crack down....I know the reasons behind everything but it's way too much information for me to comprehend, if that makes sense.

Bright blessings, love, and prayers --
Samantha V. =)

Chris You Bestill My Heart! <3

Things continue to go great with the eHaromony guy Chris. We are doing our first meeting/first date on Tuesday. We are going to talk more about it sometime this weekend. We were on the phone from 10:30pm till 2 this morning. It is 2:25 and I am up, glowing, and just incredibly happy.

Chris's spirit guide is named Corick. Corick told Chris that we are twin flames. So I was wrong that X was my twin flame, which is weird as I was re-reading my Soul Groups article I had wrote for Maria Shaw's newsletter. Normally when twin flames are apart, there is a sadness or emptiness. But I wasn't feeling the sadness, just the emptiness. I knew X and I had to part ways for the better. But I still missed that connection I had with X. But Chris fullfills the emptiness and I also feel an even higher connection to him moreso than I did with X! Chris talked with Angie (my main spirit guide) as I wanted to know if I was going to come back when I die (we were talking about the Earth's final days -- Chris believes that the Earth will be hit by a commet and that life may end in 2100). She told him it was my decision to come back or not.

Chris found out one of our past lives -- I was his mother in the 1860's - 1870's. Which explains the mother figure in his horoscope last week. And why I have Scorpio in the first house and he has a Scorpio node. I think Chris and I could make a great psychic team AND romantic relationship. But right now I want to concentrate on getting to know him. We got into a heated debate about whether trees have souls or not. I believe that every living thing has a soul, while he says that trees and insects only have energy implants and not souls and have a Divine spark in them, just not a soul. I suck at debates as I don't like to debate, so I let him win.

Looking at my Maria Shaw moon calendar, I just noticed that Tuesday is an Aries moon day and he has an Aries moon and I have an Aries moon. So the sparks are going to really fly on Tuesday.

And I just noticed that his name does not have an M or A in it...hmmm...odd....

The weird thing is, I've always pictured my romantic relationships as a mountain to climb. For once, I feel like I made it to the top of the mountain. I have never felt that way before.

But nonetheless, it is time for bed. Goodnight everyone!

-Samantha V.

Giving Back

I am really excited about doing this blogathon. I am looking at writing out ideas to write on July 25, just in case I get stuck. I am setting a small goal - to raise $40. So far, I have had only one donor (and that was my parents) and I've raised $15. It's a start! I plan on donating after this is over with.

But seriously, giving back makes me feel good. Maybe it's the Virgo in me, but I love helping out whenever I can. However, I am more into helping out my country moreso than the world. We spend billions of dollars on other countries, when there are people here that can't afford a decent meal, can't afford health insurance, can't keep criminals off the street etc. I believe we are blessed as a country here in the US, but the people here are just as in need as people in Africa. Like they say, charity begins at home.

I also don't trust a lot of charities. They start out with good intentions, but then someone gets in there and corrupts it. I think about the whole Live Aid thing in the 80's that was suppose to raise money to combat AIDS in Africa (I think!! I could be wrong!) and I believe the founder pick pocketed just about all of the money. I can't remember, but I know that there are some crooks out there that run charities and the people don't see a cent or receive help. And that pisses me off (excuse my language). The whole September 11 shenanigan the celebrities did that raised money for the people affected by September 11 for the heroes and the widows/widowers and the people who were killed that day that had families...not a cent was seen for those people and that just burned my bubble. The same with Hurricane Katrinia -- they didn't see a cent until FEMA came in. But then again, some of those people abused the help too. Either way, it just burns me up inside that people take advantage of people like that, and that holds me back from donating sometimes. I've supported The Food Bank of Eastern Michigan, The Humane Society of Genesee County, and March of Dimes. All organizations I trust. I am hoping ASPCA will continue to be an organization I can help out as well. I am trying to find organizations that deal with Autism research, depression research and help for those who cannot afford to get treated, something to support the United States troops overseas where it will 100% go them and no one else, and something for research for cervical cancer and HPV and to help those with Cervical cancer and HPV. I would also love to support organizations that help cancer survivors and cancer patients (especially kids!), and organizations that will somehow promote and teach religious and spiritual freedom and tolerance and of course research for parnormal and metaphysical studies. It is my dream that one day psychology and metaphysics can do a study together between Autism and Indigo/Crystal Children & adults.

Being an Indigo Adult, I am labeled with ADD and Asperger's Syndrome (which is a mild and higher-functioning form of Autism). I really believe there is a difference between a higher functioning human being and a person with Autism. And these thoughts may be controversial, or even offensive, but that is how I see things. Yes, I believe Autism exists and so does ADHD, but ADD...did it ever occur to people that some just cannot focus on things that don't interest them? And the way I see Autism -- it is not a disease, just people who live differently than us.

Ok I am stepping down my soap box!

-Samantha V. =)